{"id":639,"date":"2016-07-09T21:54:20","date_gmt":"2016-07-10T03:54:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.superstarcrasher.com\/view\/?p=639"},"modified":"2016-07-09T21:54:33","modified_gmt":"2016-07-10T03:54:33","slug":"639","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.superstarcrasher.com\/view\/2016\/07\/639\/","title":{"rendered":"much closer"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>What&#8217;s bothering me:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>still living bare\n<ul>\n<li>no sacred space<\/li>\n<li>no quiet no quiet no quiet<\/li>\n<li>can&#8217;t fuck on my own terms<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<li>words flowing out worse than before\n<ul>\n<li>it feels harder to talk now<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<li>head full of shit\n<ul>\n<li>bad advertising jingles<\/li>\n<li>breathy quotes<\/li>\n<li>quoteunquote deep quotes<\/li>\n<li>bad lines<\/li>\n<li>good lines<\/li>\n<li>video game lines<\/li>\n<li>bible scraps<\/li>\n<li>images I don&#8217;t need to think about<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<li>loving hurts\n<ul>\n<li>trying not to be an enabler<\/li>\n<li>still just a moralizing asshole<\/li>\n<li>feels like 2012 sometimes<\/li>\n<li>did I really do this to myself again<\/li>\n<li>did I really pick this again<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<li>tired\n<ul>\n<li>feel like shit<\/li>\n<li>tired of always feeling like shit<\/li>\n<li>tired of phlegm<\/li>\n<li>tired of allergies<\/li>\n<li>tired of being tired<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<li>stuck and helpless\n<ul>\n<li>can&#8217;t leave and it feels harder to stay<\/li>\n<li>want to run<\/li>\n<li>want to run<\/li>\n<li>really want to get the fuck out of here<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>gotta get the fuck out of here<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>What&#8217;s bothering me: still living bare no sacred space no quiet no quiet no quiet can&#8217;t fuck on my own terms words flowing out worse&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-639","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v27.7 - 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